2003-05-25 + 11:18 a.m.

I beat that damn game last night and I cried.

Now I feel lost, like I don't know how to fill my time.

I've lost 30 pounds so far eating cheese and meat. My old tight jeans fit perfectly, my skirts are fallings off my hips and I had to buy new underwear because the old ones were too stretched out and sagged in the ass which is funny because they were thongs.

I have a knot in my stomach about work today. It's going to be uncomfortable and I hate this drama. I'm super easy to get along with so I never understand why co-workers sometimes don't like me.

Ugh.

I wish I could go back to sleep and dream of being Carrie from Sex in the City. My therapist wouldn't be pleased to know that I'm thinking of doing this. She told me that this a poor way of coping.

I've started sleeping better on a whole. There were night last week where I just lay there awake, panicing, thought racing and lighting speed. I finally pass out, exhausted and be tired for the rest of the next day.

Nothing much of interest around these parts. Hopefully I will update more now that I beat that life sucking video game.

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