2001-12-24 + 1:47 a.m.

Hello dear readers.

I have been busy injecting the economy with money in the hopes that I picked out good stuff for friends and family.

I'm not being promoted after all as I need to work on my people skills. The manager quit today and yet they can still use me to open and close the store for them but I still need to work on my people skills.

I mean really.

It's not like I hawk giant sized loogies onto people's heads or throw handfuls of monkey poop at their babies. I smile and greet everyone and offer help, choices and accessories and manage to say thank you.

Sometimes I have the feeling that it will never be ok. Something will always fall apart.

Tomorrow I want nothing more to wake and up and not be in a state of panic. I want to go into work and leave knowing that everything is ok. I want to leave work at work and not spend every moment at home thinking about how much everything sucks.

I wish I wrote happy stories about sunshine and kittens wearing pink sweaters. Instead I fill you all with thoughts of darkness.

How very Goth of me.

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